Wednesday, May 14, 2014

what would you do if you weren't afraid?

I saw this question pop up on twitter and thought it would make for an excellent Confessions post. Linking up with Kathy, like always.

I've never been one to dream too big - I've always thought myself to be pretty realistic. I was a good student, but didn't do anything monumental to garner me a job with a ton of prestige. I'm not particularly talented in any one arena so I never dreamt of being a writer or an athlete or a singer. I've always just wanted to be happy and comfortable. But, short of winning the lottery or having a long-lost relative leave me an inheritance, I'm going to have to work to get there.

I think if I wasn't afraid, and since I have yet to find a talent and passion of my own, I would tell Andrew to open a barbecue trailer. He's working to perfect his ribs and brisket as it is, just for fun, and I would love for him to add turkey to the mix. One of the few things I can cook is macaroni and cheese. I would want to play around until I found the perfect mixture of cheese and pasta to make something completely craveable. And since this is my dream and I'm not afraid, I would want this little trailer to make its own bread. And dessert. There would have to be a perfect dessert at the end of the meal that everyone who came would order, hungry or not, because it would be that good. Mini pies? Brownies? Banana pudding cups? Maybe all of them, because I wouldn't have to be afraid that they wouldn't be good enough.

If I wasn't afraid, I would insist that this trailer was inside the loop, where more people who are adventurous with their bellies and money are. I would want a custom Airstream so we had some hipster cred, and red picnic tables outside the trailer, with umbrellas to protect our customers from the Texas sun. I would take the orders with a smile and thank everyone who came by and Andrew would cook, of course. He would balance the books and I would file the taxes. I would do all the supply ordering because it would probably be the only shopping I would ever have time for because our days would be start fire, cook, open, serve, close, repeat. I would commission a cute logo and we would sell t-shirts and koozies and blare our favorite music to those within earshot - none of that old-fashioned, twangy country so many other barbecue joints favor. It would be us, working hard, always smelling of oak and meat, and me never wanting to eat beef again. That's what I would do, if I wasn't afraid.

21 comments:

  1. to be honest, i've never been afraid to do something. if i want to do it, i will because i will always say to myself: what's the worst that can happen? if death isn't a possibility, then nothing is bad enough to make me NOT do something. i may fail, i may make a fool of myself but i'd much rather life with that (and know that i tried) instead of looking back with regret because ain't nobody got time for regret.

    -kathy
    Vodka and Soda

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  2. I eventually want to start my own event planning business. I am not really afraid to do that, but I do need a steady paycheck to survive. So, it is on my "one day" list.

    My boyfriend is actually quitting his job to start his own BBQ sauce business. Talk about scary! I totally admire him for doing it though. And it is so much fun helping him get the business off the ground. We are hoping the business takes off and we can both run it eventually.

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  3. That sounds awesome! I'd come eat at your food trailer.

    If I weren't afraid I'd move to a warmer beach further south. :)

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  4. Your absence of fear tastes delicious. What a fun question I'll have to think about it.

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  5. Your vision sounds delicious. I vote for brownies with a dollop of ice cream on top for dessert. I'd come visit and eat there!

    I have zero desire to run my own business. MFD, as a realtor, essentially runs his own business, and he loves it. He made it happen, the jump from a salaried job with benefits to a job based solely on commission. There were a few years of struggles but we made it through. You could too!

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  6. I would totally come to your spot to dine and buy a koozie- sounds amazing!

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  7. I think this is the perfect dream for you guys!! Maybe it's something that you could actually make happen!!!

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  8. i say dont be afraid and do it! sounds like a fabulous plan :)

    if i wasnt afraid.. hmm. i used to be scared of moving overseas, but it turned out to be the best thing i ever did. now im not really afraid to do anything, i want to do everything!

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  9. I pretty much think that this is an amazing vision you have! You make me want to drive all the way to TX to visit your street cred Airstream. Especially if there was turkey. I love me some BBQ turkey! It is my go to order and I get a little ragey when BBQ places don't have it.

    If I were not afraid, I would open up my own boutique in a trendy downtown spot of a "amsller big city" and quite possibly carry my own line along with other designers. I would burn candles in my store, serve beverages while you shopped, and have fun every day. My mom would come run the store with me. I already have a name...and a logo...now where is the money?!?!

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  10. I love this! John is working on his MBA and always talks about running a business of some sort and I am total Debbie Downer and always put the kibosh on leaving our/hi stable, good-paying, flexible jobs with benefits to do this.

    We also have been seriously talking about moving to Florida to be closer to family (having a baby really has lit a fire under us to speed this up) but I am so nervous to again, leave my job and start over. I think money is a big thing holding us/me back. Not that we ever really struggled, but I think we have worked hard to get to a place of financial stability and cleaning out our savings to move, start businesses, potentially getting a lower salary, etc. is nerve wracking, even though I know people do it all the time.

    I prefer small changes, like new paint colors and pillows. Big changes scare the shit out of me!

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  11. Also, I have no idea why this published as my old blog!

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  12. i think you two should actively pursue this someday!

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  13. If i wasn't afraid I would open my own bakery. Funny how mortgage, car payments, and fear get in the way. i would totally visit and eat till I was stuffed! ;)

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  14. Oh my gosh what a neat idea!
    I'm not necessarily someone who's afraid... but I don't like change at all - so that holds me back big time!

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  15. I used to shy away from doing things because change is SO scary and I hated the thought of not knowing what was going to happen...I don't know what changed, but these days I am all about taking risks and doing what makes me happy. It's still scary, but it feels like it's worth taking a chance, you know? I hope you aren't afraid forever because this sounds like an awesome dream for both you and your husband!

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  16. That sounds like an awesome little dream--the kind of place that artistic pictures would get taken of and articles would be written about it in the local newspaper, right?

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  18. Ok so now I really want you guys to do this! I would so be your dessert taste-tester too.

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  19. I love this dream! It's so fun!

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  20. I loved reading this and all the little details you put into it. It sounds lovely and perfect match for you two. Two things came to mind when I read this post.
    1. If I weren't afraid of heights (or the possibility of falling), I'd like to do some climbs with David to see some fantastic views.
    2. If I wasn't afraid career-wise, I'd like to open up a little bakery or a restaurant that serves desserts only (like The Chocolate Bar). Kansas City doesn't have ANYTHING like that and I think people would really enjoy it. David would handle the business side and I would bake and create the logos and menus. :) So similar to your idea, just with sweets.

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  21. Love, Love this post! P and I talk about starting a brewery one day. I told him if he is really serious then we need to start clamping down and saving money. I'm not starting a business like that when I'm in my 50s. There is so much we want to see and do :) Your little bbq sounds lovely! You should sell Whoopie Pies :)

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