I recently had lunch with some friends. Friends made through blogging, but who are more than blog friends and aren't in the same "blog group" as me. They blog for different audiences and reasons. So we were chatting about what was new and I told them I had been largely offline lately and felt okay about that. One friend emphatically told me that I burned myself out, and the other echoed her claim.
And they weren't wrong.
I'm not sure when 4-5 posts per week, responding to every comment, and commenting everywhere became the norm, but somewhere it did. I tried my best to keep up with bloggers who made that look easy. Quantity was king and I wanted a piece of that too. "Only" getting x number of comments was seen as an opinion about my abilities as a writer and stagnant numbers of followers plagued me. I mean, that's dramatic, but it kind of did!
So, as you know, if you know me from other bloggers you read, I kind of... stopped. Or tapered off. Yes, we moved, and things have changed, but I didn't want to come here anymore. I liked not having a pile of comments to respond to or posts I felt guilty for skipping. And others are in the same boat, it seems. Many bloggers I considered to be in my group have scaled back, or quit all together. And I can't blame them. I think we did this to ourselves!
For me, the battle between wanting to write versus not wasting anyone's time with what I shared was huge. Do you, living in a different time zone, care what I ate for dinner on Saturday? Let's be honest and say you probably don't. So I started getting into the "why bother?" of it all and didn't want to write at all.
But I missed it. I miss sharing and interacting. I don't make the time to write, read, and respond like I used to. Maybe one day I will again. But that isn't me right now. I want to focus in 2015 on life and documenting the things worth remembering, whether it gets posted to the internet or not. I want to write for me, whether I think you'll like it. I want to read blogs that I love and not follow anyone because I have to! I want to mostly forget picmonkey exists and just have my crappy phone pics be enough (because seriously? Editing photos takes for-ev-er). I truly want this to be where I document my life and what's in my head, and for that to be enough. So that's my goal in 2015. What are you working on?